Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Thanks, 2013.

Wow, Goodness. Is this really goodbye to 2013? You've been crazy. And that's being mild.

At the beginning of this year I don't think I could have imagined how much would happen or change.
Or how much I would change. This year has be about me finding all about um, well. Me.

Change doesn't scare me anymore// I heal slowly// I'm too hard on myself// I'm a introvert and extrovert// People's words and actions do mean too much to me// I'm a perfectionist, but I'm learning to deal with it// I'm not shy anymore// I will stand up for myself// I'm very sensitive// I'm scared of relationships// I'm blunt// I'm forgiven// I'm not the girl I was last year at this time// I'm not sure what I'm going to do with my life yet and that's OK//

This year was also about Adventure and first times...

I traveled to Prince Edward Island// Danced in front of thousands of people on stage// Got asked out for the first "real" time// Traveled to the UK// Hosted two civil war balls// Went to NC for my sister's graduation// Went to my first prom// Joined choir// Road tripped to Kentucky// Was in drama club// I got my drivers license//

This year has also shown me God in a new way. God has shown me so much this year...

I've learned to give my fears to The Lord// My lord when never forsake me or forget me// He's got my back// His love is utterly amazing// Saving grace and changing grace// I would be so lost without God// God's burden for the lost is heart breaking//God has been showing me how to love and to love undying// Prayer can change anything and everything// 

If i was going to give this year a name i would call it //the year of grace and love//  

This year has be strange and exciting! 
So much amazing stuff has happened this year, I'm totally stoked to see what Gods going to do in my life this coming 2014. 

Thanks, 2013 for changing me and preparing me for what 2014 has in store for me.

Later, 2013.

Hannah <3

//p.s. I hope y'all have a wonderful new years eve and a happy new years!//

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Civil War Christmas Ball 2013

Every year my family host an annual civil war christmas ball and every years it's a magical evening and this year was no exception. They say a picture is worth a thousand words, So here are some pictures to say what i don't have time to write.
Rachel, Charity and I.
Pretty Dresses!
Dancing away.
My Mum, calling the dances.

My Brothers. lol
He looks happy, doesn't he! ;)

Besties <3
Siblings and friends <3

A Wonderful evening was had by all. I loved to see all the lovely dresses and be jolly with my dear friends and family. 

Can you believe tomorrow is Christmas? ah. Well, I'm off to wrap some gifts.
Have a jolly, holly Christmas eve.

Hannah <3

Wednesday, December 11, 2013


Today marks the day of my birth. 
17 years ago.
December 11th, 1996

I'm not going to bab on and on about how I can't believe I'm 17 or how bitter sweet it is. because sitting here on my bed, drinking tea, I feel strangely OK. OK with the fact that 16 is over and that strangely I can believe I'm 17. 

16 was crazy, I loved and hated it. 
But, I'm kinda glad it's done. 
For the longest time, I've held on to my youth afraid to grow up. But here and now I'm OK with it. I'm actually excited for the New Year, for change.

16 was also the hardest yet.
Half of what I went through no one knows or ever will know. But God was always there. And I think that was one of the most important things I learns my 16th year.

I'm so excited to see what people I will meet, the places I'll go and the adventures I'll have my 17th year!

Well, here's to 17.
Please be good. 

Now i'm off to have coffee with a friend and then eat cake and be merry with my family! :)

Hannah <3

Sunday, December 8, 2013

A Tea Party To Remember.

I'll always remember this evening for the laughter and I'll always smile when I think about all my lovely friends who will share this memory with me.


Laughed like idiots
Drank tea
Talked about boys
Ate cucumber sandwiches
Shared long hugs
Spent the night in a mansion (Cool, right?)

Talked like British Nanny's
And were merry...

and I can't think of a better way to spend my evening.

Love these girls! <3

I want to say a big thanks to my mum for helping me get everything ready for my birthday tea/slumber party.

Well, I can't believe that on the 11th i shall be 17. time sure does fly, when you're having fun!

Hannah <3

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

In a vicious world, i will calm your soul.

I'll never leave you. I'll never forsake you.
In a vicious world, i will calm your soul.
I'll never leave you. I won't forget you.

These few words are some I've dearly longed to hear.
I've always wanted that one person to say "I'll never leave you."
I want to be loved, to be missed and wanted.
I've always dreamed about someone loving me so much that they would do anything for me.  Someone whom even if i walked away from them would say "I'm not giving up on you."
You could say i have a very high expectation of love.
And i think because of this i have let my heart chip so many times, trying to find a undying love.
there are people i poured my heart into and would have died for and have simply just walked away from me... 

I could go on but, I'll just cut to the chase.

The truth is, No person can love me like this.
The love i long for isn't of this earth.
In these last few months i realized that God is the only one whom will never leave me or forsake me. even after so many time of turning my back on him, he was there saying "I'm not giving up on you." 

I'm not saying that people won't love you and never leave you, but that's your going to waste a lot of time searching, if you're trying to find a love like God's from other people.

My lord, is the only one whom can love me like I've longed for.
so I'm done trying to find "undying love" because I've already found it.

So God, thank you. that In a vicious world, You will calm My soul. and You will never leave Me or forsake Me. and You won't forget Me. 

Hannah <3
thanks, my dear blogger friends. for listening to my late night thoughts and ramblings! And thanks for the birthday wishes! It was a wonderful birthday!! :)