June 10th, 2018

I hope you find love.

Not the kind of love that loves until something better comes along. Not the kind of love that takes and takes and gives nothing. Not the kind of love that lies. Not the kind of love that breaks. Not the kind of love that leaves.

But,

The kind of love that gives and keeps on giving. The kind of love that always has your back. The kind of love that loves you through all your struggles. The kind of love that looks at you like you are the most precious thing in the whole wide world. The kind of loves that stays. 

I hope you find that. 

i look forward.

i look forward to airport reunions. 

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i look forward to hands reconnecting. 

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i look forward to not missing you. 

happy.

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I'm happy. 

For once in my life happy isn't a sad thought.

Happy isn't just a wishful dream of something i'll never be or have.

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I'm happy. 

Once you realize that the world doesn't need to be held on your own shoulders, but that there is a God that is strong enough to carry the whole universe on his shoulders; it's pretty easy to be happy. 

Midnight Dreams.

Dream have a way of reminding us of what the heart still feels. 

My midnight dreams like to remind me that once you love, you never forget. The heart isn't so easy to forget what the mind thinks is too painful to remember. 

But the daylight scares those dreams away; I'm okay with that.

broken.

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i wanted so badly to make you feel whole. 

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i wanted to put all the broken bits and pieces back together. as if the world had never touched you. 

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but then, i realized.

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some people like being broken.

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but some people want to be saved.

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you just have to learn the difference.

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fall tunes.

It's november. i dyed my hair red and these are some tunes i'm listening to this fall. 

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greg laswell - high and low 

andrew belle - you 

the japanese house - face like thunder

joy williams - we can never go back 

ed sheeran - one 

niall horan - this town 

imogen heap - you know where to find me 

the fray - sing low 

the 1975 - fallingforyou

i decided.

i decided to keep fighting // that i had a little more left to give //

i decided i couldn't let go // i decided that's okay // for now 

hearts do break // time does heal // forgiveness is possible // trust can be restored

love is hard // love is real // 

but the fact that we survive off of the love of others, was reason enough to try and love again //