This week has been hard. I'm gonna come out and say it. I feel so emotionally drained.
One of my closer friends wrote a very long message to me. It was so hurtful.
I couldn't help, But let the tears stream down my face.
I felt:
Betrayed
Hated
Judged
Alone
Hurt
Mad
And so much more.
I don't think I've ever been that mad at someone before.
I wanted to never see her again.
The next day she wrote back, Saying. She was really upset and confused.
She must have said "sorry" at least 20x!
I knew i should forgive her and move on, But i didn't want to. I wanted her to feel as bad as she had made me. I wanted to say i hated her and ever see her again.
But then i took a step back.
What would God want me to do?
Love her
Lead her to the lord
Realize that since she isn't a christian, There is a lot she doesn't understand about me
Forgive
Realize that everyone makes mistakes.
Be a good representation of Christ
Be there for her
I always want to run away from people when they hurt me, But sometimes you have to take a step back and realize how much they need you. And stay.
It's hard, But God would want me to forgive and move on.
And i really wouldn't want to lose her friendship.
So with the mercy of God, that's what i shall do.
Forgive.
Love,
Hannah <3
