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Monday, December 28, 2015

i hope.


 i hope you are happy.
i hope you find what you were always searching for.

i hope you find you.
i hope you find out why you are so drawn to heartbreak.
why it is so easy for you to throw yourself off a cliff.
but yet so hard to keep within.

i hope you can look yourself in the eyes through the looking glass and smile.
that you learned to live with your demons. 

i hope you did it.
 i hope you did all those things that haunted your mind.

i hope you found out why you have a gypsy soul.
why you crave the sea and the pavement lights. 

i hope you find peace.
i hope you learned to stay. to let go. to lose. to be. to love.

i hope you loved with all your being. with your heart, soul, body and mind.
with such a recklessness that it scares even yourself.

i hope you find it.
 not so much a thing, place or even a person.
but a feeling.

a feeling of living.

i hope you lived.

//dear me.


Wednesday, November 11, 2015

last night.

 into the rain i ran. 

it didn't matter how wet i got
or
how much of my makeup rolled off my face
or
that tears and rain danced like a waltz together on my face.

it didn't matter.

i chose to run.
to dance.
to be.
in the rain. 


Tuesday, October 20, 2015

he said.


  "She laughs a lot!" 

It may be silly and kinda dumb
But, 
That's one of the best thing anyone has said about me. 

It's real and honest. 

I'd rather be know to laugh than cry. 

xoxo. 
-the girl who learned to laugh. 

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

autumn playlist.



I hope everyone is having a lovely week so far. I put together a collection of a few song that i'm really digging.  so pour a cup of tea and pull on your favorite sweater and give these tunes a listen. xoxo














Friday, September 25, 2015

last night.

we sobbed through the whole opening credits of little women. 
maybe
 it was the fact that you are leaving in 3 days 
or 
perhaps,
 it's was the way that somehow between the melody, bits and pieces or our childhood came to life,
as if 
suddenly we were little kids again, hiding in our attic to watch our favorite movie. cuddled up with layers of blankets and love. 

ha, maybe it was just the overdoes of caffeine from starbucks.

i guess it could have been many things.
but, 
i felt love and loss
but,
 us little women will be together again 
and 
you'll be home for Christmas. 

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

laugh.

round we go.
laughing all the way. 

we laugh like we're trying to hide. 
to hide within the smile that never quite reaches your eyes. 

you laugh to forget who you've become and who you've lost along the way.

and me.
well,
i laugh because i forgot how to cry.

Thursday, August 6, 2015

to the...


 to the girl slowly killing herself to be beautiful

shake the dust

to the boy calling to get a drive from his home, just for a minutes peace from his parents screaming

shake the dust

to the girl fighting a battle no one knows a thing about

shake the dust

to the girl whose tired of crying all her makeup away

shake the dust

to all the people we've loved and lost

shake the dust

to the girl sitting on her closet floor, listing to music too loud to drowned out her crying

shake the dust

to the girl with the stunning big smile and hurting eyes

shake the dust

to the boy whom you loved and let go of

shake the dust 

to the girl who thinks shes gone to far, even for god

shake the dust

to the boy whom tried to stop caring, but failed

shake the dust

to the girl whose hands won't stop shaking while typing this

shake the dust

Monday, August 3, 2015

scotland/ireland

my eyes are still heavy from the weariness of jet leg. but my mind is wide awake with memories from my past 2 week adventure.
 
Ireland, your culture, ascents, lush green, fish and chips, quick rain storms re-awakened my passion for travel.
But, Oh Scotland, you've stolen my heart. from that very first time i stepped out of the ferry, i knew, i'd have to return. Still after 3 years, my heart belongs to you. my second home. 

what a wonderful 2 weeks of living. 


Thursday, July 16, 2015

12:00am

"I will get strong again. I will." 
She whispered into the darkness. 

But even with those words barely out of her mouth, she was. Even if only a little bit, she was stronger. 



Monday, June 15, 2015

meet me in st. louis//


This was weekend was perfect.
St. Louis was lovely.

Went to the arch, Had wonderful coffee, Spent time with family, Danced all night, Hungout with friends, and tried to act ghetto.

This is what summer is made for.
//I love me a good summer adventure// 

Thursday, June 11, 2015

10 things to stop doing//

.
  • Trying to be perfect 

  • Beating myself up for my mistakes

  • Hating change

  • Over-thinking EVERYTHING

  • Caring too much what people think and say about me

  • Counting every calorie
 
  • Little white lies 
 
  •  Being afraid to dream

  • Chasing tomorrow 
  
  • Not loving myself 

I know we all have things we want to change. here are my ten. what are yours? xoxo
//Pinterest inspired.

Thursday, June 4, 2015

such loveliness//

Price Edward Island.

oh, such loveliness is hard to be found.
It's Red rocks, white sands and bright lighthouses have stolen a piece of my heart.

i think i shall always love it there.
i think it will always be in my heart.
because,
it feels like home. 

It feels like it's apart of me.
a puzzle piece in my life.

oh, Prince Edward Island, You enchant me quite.

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

coffee house economical.

laurenarlene: Visiting places I’ve never been is way better with this man by my side. (at 49th Parallel Coffee Roasters Ltd.)
"A small, caramel latte, please."

"4,25"

"Here's five. keep the change."

"Thanks."

ch-ching

Ed Sheeran sang through the air, mixed with espresso.
but, all he could do was stare.  

"Here you go. A small, caramel latte."

"Thank you."

Maybe it was the way their hands felt as they brushed together, upon the warm drink
or 
Her mesmerizing blue eyes.

But, they both felt it. for that spilt second.
they knew.
 She'd never forget his smile and he'd always remember her eyes.

"Have a wonderful evening."

"You too."

And with that, it was over. done. gone.

Never to be, But, always to be remembered. 
To be felt. 

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

sum it up//love

   //you can't really sum it up with words. words are too weak. 
you can't really sum it up with actions. actions are too strong.
i guess you can't really sum it up at all. 
maybe it's not something you can say or do. but, only feel. 
and only with your own heart. 
no one can feel it for you or tell you how it should feel. 
only you. you must feel it. 
 then, you too, won't know how to sum it up.// 

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Currently// March


currently //

listening// walk the moon//Shut up and dance & built by titans//the darkness 

eating// nothing with sugar... on a sugar fast... #shotmenow
 

watching// *watched* Cinderella (have courage and be kind) 
 

missing// My sisters
 

drinking//  Cinnamon, Caramel, Mochas. trust me. so good.

wearing//  Comfy clothing. hey, winter has taken it's toll... ;)
 
reading// To catch a mockingbird. 

loving// My new job at the local coffee house! I love being a barista! #freecoffeeforthewin

dreaming// of traveling all over the world. 



Sunday, February 15, 2015

Currently// February


currently //

listening// bethel//we will not be shaken & mikky Ekko//time

eating// anything from this cookbook >epicness<
 

watching// ringer. this show is, um, cray.
 

missing// summer
 

drinking// green tea w/ honey, lemon and Cinnamon. #europeanswag

wearing//  floral & Burgundy. 
 
reading// catching fire. i know, i know.  i've fallen into the fandom.

loving// me and my brother's weekly bible study.

dreaming// adventure. 




Thursday, February 5, 2015

stop//

Do you ever have those moments when you just stop.
Stop everything you are doing & just take it all in?

I do. I did.

I stopped & looked out my window, breathed in and out.
&
I realized.
Life is good.

Yes,
My life is a mess & crazy.
but,
It's good. 

It's amazing, actually.

/ / i have a dad who has aways been there for me & never have i ever, had to worry what we were going to eat or if daddy was coming home. 

/ / i have a mother who has done & giving all she could in raising me.

/ / i have two brothers who, even though get on my nerves sometimes, are great. 

/ / i have three sisters, who are my best friends. they are my romodels and i really couldn't live my life without them. 

/ / i live in a wonderful small town 

/ / i have a bed & a house 

/ / i have friends who love me

/ / i have the God of angle armies always by my side 
 
Really,
what more could i need?
Even if i have but, those few things, i am rich.

More often i need to stop. 
Stop & marvel at this amazing life God has blessed me with.

//i hope that even in the craziness of your week, you find time to take a minute to take in the wonderful blessings of live. xoxo//

Friday, January 30, 2015

New Room//

Hey, lovelies.
Can i get an amen, hallelujah, it's Friday? haha. but really, though. oh and this isn't just any Friday. No, it's my bestie's birthday, so why don'tcha all show my michy some love
> #followmybesteiforawesomeness <

okay, enough fooling around.

so my sister just moved to collage. so naturally i steal her room. (technically, my sister stole my other sister's room, who stole her's, so I'm really taking my other sisters room...(but lets not go there) ;) dang, no more fooling around. onward ho.

i decided to go bold.

my mom suggested white. heck.to.the.no.
so i went with burgundy.

burgundy all the way, baby.


I'm pretty happy with it. at first i was very, very, very, very worried. but i like it now.

i love Paris and vintage/European look, so there is a lot of that. it's not completely done. but i thought some of you might enjoy seeing it.

well, here are some pictures of my new Burgundy/Paris/Black&White/Mustache room.



//hope everyone enjoys their weekend. i hope to spend some me&me time in my new room. xoxo//
 
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