As the rain fall.

Well, Today was the perfect day for a nice short walk in the rain, Then to cuddle under a soft, warm blanket and read a lovely book! As the rain falls and the thunder booms. I feel so complete just sitting on my bed, doing, Well, Nothing! 

Ah, Yes. This is the life.

Love,

Hannah 

Perfectionist.

This weekend i learned something very important about myself. 

I'M A PERFECTIONIST.
  
This last week i was at a friends house. She was having a party and people wanted to see me do some Irish dance! (FYI, I'm a Irish dancer!) So i was doing my dance, It's a dance i know fairly well and then i went and made a stupid mistake. I don't think anyone noticed, But i felt like such a loser. I finished, then went up stairs to use the restroom. I was thinking about my mistake and got so upset i slapped myself.  It didn't hurt physically, but emotionally.   

And then it struck me. 

I WANT TO BE PERFECT.

 I don't want people to ever see my mistakes or to think badly of me.

ahhhh, I've always been over weight. tried every diet EVER. But nothing really ever works. But i want the perfect body so much that i end up hurting myself. (I shall go into this another time)  

And I hurt myself for what? To be perfect! 

But, The sad truth is i can't be PERFECT. 
And what I've learned from this is...

I DON'T NEED TO BE PERFECT.

Because I'm perfect to God and that's all that matters.  
And with God's help, I'm going to try to realize that.

I'm done beating myself up for... 
Not being skinning, Not having clear skin, Not having the best clothing, Making mistakes, Not having the most friends, Not being the popular girl and Most of all..

I'm done beating myself up for Being ME.